Reflective about this time of year

Well I have to say that I am pretty reflective at this time of year.  Sure everyone gets excited about Christmas, gifts, holidays, family, New Years.  But, to be sure, it builds a lot of expectations and a lot of anxiety at the same time.  I think in many ways no one ever wants to say that they don't like this time of years.  I hate it.  Oh, it's not Christmas or the holiday spirit that I don't like, or the idea of it.  It's the anxiety and depression that goes along with all that.  I suppose some people never feel that - may you never feel it.  But for many people, that is not the case. For me, I love the season and dread it at the same time.  I want to love it more, but the stress and anxiety can wear on me too and by the end, I am tired and filled with sadness.  I sometimes can't tell anyone that I feel this way because they actually get angry at me - the expectation is just that you can't NOT like the holidays - are you the Grinch? are you Scrooge? 

Anyway, as I reflect, I try to keep things in perspective, and remember that it's okay to be pensive, it's okay to be jolly, and it's okay to hate the whole darn thing.